I See You Delirium

​Esta noche he ofrecido quedarme en el hospital, para que L y MI puedan dormir en sus casas y encargarse de sus cosas. 

Lydia texted me about the things he’s been saying, mostly incoherent and nonsensical. I expected this and had warned her. Both Peter and PJ had similar reactions to the medication and also said hurtful things to their partners. Lydia is taking it personally, but I think it’s also because she’s exhausted and needs proper rest. 

Yesterday I had a good conversation with him, it felt like a moment of lucidity. I tested his memory, and although he couldn’t recall the day before going to the emergency room, he remembered a lot of other things. He was talking about the movie, The Battle of Algiers recommending me to watch it and reminded me of another priest in El Salvador, Padre Andrés, who was also killed during the war. 

I could barely understand him, his voice is still coarse, but overall it felt like he was speaking fairly normally. He did say something strange afterward, though, telling me that Ollie had been stabbed and to look it up. That was the only thing that seemed off. 

I looked it up, the symptoms are pretty normal. They call it ICU delirium (would make a great title for something) the drugs, the lack of oxygen, the fevers, all of it is affecting his brain. 

I just thought of an idea and texted it to Lydia, instead of calling it ICU Delirium, let’s call it I See You Delirium, as a way to detach from what he’s saying.