Soñando con los ojos abiertos

​Hoy he soñado, pero he soñado despierta! 

Con los ojos abiertos… 

Una tarde en un café, escuchando música en vivo, y jugando Magia. Conversaciones súper interesantes 

Una calle que me recordó a España… será que por eso se llama Valencia? 

La Próxima ?

Próxima?​

Art Practice

In reality, what should be happening is this: I wake up, do my exercises, have breakfast, and head to the studio. I spend time on small painting practices, working on brushstrokes, color mixing etc, 

In an ideal world, I would have done several practice studies before jumping into this large piece.

But I can’t. I don’t have that kind of time. So instead, I dove straight into a big painting and hope for the best! 

the struggle is what the process is all about.

Painting…

​Another 5 hours of painting! I feel like I finally found the way! 

Will leave it until Monday- some of the oil will be dried, and will be able to paint over it. 

is ok!

​this beautiful magical spell of a sunny day, the last days of another April-charged with wild experiences inside the corridors of hospitals. inside Juan Carlos. heart’s vessels, an encounter with his umbilical cord and his penis. An array of emotions and long nights no sleeping. Today is a beautiful afternoon and is all ok, all very ok! 

Todas las versiones de una misma presencia

Primero, un desconocido.

Después, alguien sumamente inteligente,
lector incansable, interesante

su alma, bondad y belleza brillando en sus ojos

A veces, un poco serio
un profesor, un científico.

A veces, un poco poeta y soñador.

A veces, un niño curioso y juguetón

A veces, un ser de otro planeta

Un misterio 

Y luego están todas las otras versiones
que habitan en mi cabeza,
como espejos infinitos
de una misma presencia.

Painted and painted- progress?

Finished work, went to the gym, cooked, and then spent the next five hours painting. I was determined and inspired.

Yet this morning, I look at the painting and feel as if no progress was made at all. 

I am so familiar with this moment in the process, here is when I get frustrated, overwhelmed, and burned out and feel like giving up. 

This right here is the moment when I must push and continue, because the Magic happens when instead of giving up, I keep going! There is no hurry, no other pressure than my own. 

( I see so many errors now that need fixing! aaaah...windows are not aligned, the awning looks weird... need to work on my brush stroke)

Is going to take a lifetime to get to where I want to get with this technique. According to Doug and ChatGPT this painting is almost done. I disagree, I feel I have still lots to do, improve, fix. 

I’m so exhausted! my body hurts. I brought my laptop to bed. I don’t have any unnecessary meetings today, so it’s okay to work from here. 

I want to spend a few more hours painting tonight.