Thursday, February 12, 2026

Sueños

​Estoy en la casa de mi tío René, en el El  Salvador. Allí estoy tomando clases de seguro. 

Hay un salón lleno de gente. Yo estoy platicando con un señor ya mayor. Le estoy dando tips de cómo acordarse de cosas. 

En eso entra, Curioso. Es nuestro profesor. Llega con un abrigo negro, un back pack, y un suéter blanco, y una gorra. 

Se sienta a mostrarnos algo. Como el cerebro traduce los sonidos. De repente es su cabeza sola separada del cuerpo explicando. Es como un holograma. 

El señor que está conmigo se asustó y piensa que es brujería. Yo me río, y le digo que precisamente lo es. Solo que en camara lenta. 

Curioso está hablando de cómo los toddlers, los niños que apenas comienzan a hablar, balbucean sus palabras, que nadie más entiende pero la mamá y el papá si. 

Yo pregunto si es porque los padres han estado cerca del niño o es porque hay una conexión emocional. 

La clase termina, yo quiero quedarme sola con Curiosos, pero el señor no deja de hablar e interrumpir. 

Hay una mujer, rubia muy linda y voluptuosa, en bikini, acostada como posando para una foto. 

Como estoy escuchando estas palabras si no hay nadie hablando? osea no son voces, no hay nada fonético; sin embargo yo escucho lo que la gente dice en mis sueños y lo escribo ahora. 

Lo escrito no es 100% - es una interpretación. Yo recuerdo algunas cosas pero lo demás, lo que no me acuerdo, lo imagino para que tenga sentido. Aunque en el sueño nada tiene sentido.  

Pasaron muchas más cosas. Algo que me voy a mi casa, y me acuesto en mi cama. Están mis hermanas allí. Yo quiero estar completamente sola. Pero hay gente entrando y saliendo del cuarto y eso me enoja. 

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

Beautiful Morning

Drops of rain on the windshield, a rainbow on the horizon, the streets, crisp and shining. 

Decided to go down the ocean and take a photo of the rainbow, I was a few minutes late for work

It was worth it. 

Although the photo makes no justice! 


Sueños

​First Dream: 

I am going up and down inside a building. The building is kind of abandoned and old. There are many stairs that look unsafe and doors that are broken.  

At different floors I find different people and scenarios. I can’t remember all of them. I do remember going inside of what it looks like an attorney’s office. And they are talking about someone being accused of either closing or not closing the door properly. As I keep moving, I go through a broken door, I opened it and it closed behind me, and I wonder if the same thing happened to the accused. 


In my other dream: I am in the yard of a house. Many people are there, there is a guy who is talking to me through my subconscious like he is talking on the phone. I realize that whatever is in his subconscious is mixing with mine. For example, there is this girl standing in front of me, and her blouse falls off, her breast is exposed. I tell the guy in my subconscious to stop doing that! I say it in a humorous way. I was kind of expecting something like this to happen. 

At the point, my little sister Celeste tells me she wants to go play with the neighbors’s girl. I go out to ask the neighbors but I find 3 dogs fighting outside. The guy in my subconscious tells me to change the dream, to do something different. 

I closed my eyes and started going inside of me. Someone is talking to me about space and the stars. When I opened my eyes, this boy, is sitting in front of me, watching me. He was the one telling me all these things. There is a girl, his girl sitting next to him, looking at a magazine. I started to the guy, and leaned forward and gave him a kiss in his lips. 

We both know his girlfriend is too distracted to notice. I still wonder if she saw us. I turned my head, the guy tells me to let it go and to keep dreaming. 

Tuesday, February 10, 2026

Quick Notes

​love this corner, love my plants!

 I really enjoyed the rain today. Although it was cold and gloomy earlier. I felt a a sense of melancholy, when I drove around Ocean Beach, under the rain. I took a late break around 3pm. I was extremely busy. I kept getting calls all day. I asked Alexa to play Spanish music from the 80’s and 90’s. My head took a trip to memory land. 

I went to the gym, ran 1 mile again, but this time, didn’t obey my rule: Don’t do more than 1!! I pushed a bit more and did another quarter, and now my foot is extremely sore! I am in a lot of pain right now. I did this to myself. 

Now I have to study for the test and I am finding it difficult to concentrate. 

De que se quejan?

Mis compañeras de trabajo las super buenas y altamente moralistas y correctas— están muy enojadas por lo que pasó en el Super Bowl. Aparentemente, fue un insulto que hubiera un latino cantando. Me hablan como si yo supiera exactamente de qué están hablando. Ja, ja. Ni lo vi, ni me interesa, ni jamas me ha interesado, 

Pero ellas estan bien molestas, se sienten 'ofendidas' y me usan a mí como papel higiénico emocional para limpiar todo el enojo que cargan contra los inmigrantes latinos. 

De pronton, actuan todas serias y distantes... Ah pobrecitas! 

Sarah no pierde la oportunidad de repetir la historia de siempre: cómo su abuelo vino ilegalmente de Polonia durante la guerra y lo rápido que se apresuró a arreglar sus papeles. La misma anécdota que usa para reforzar la idea de que, si otros siguen siendo ilegales, es porque son criminales, o gente mala.

No es algo nuevo, ni que puedo evitar que pase, sigue pasando en todos los trabajos que voy, especialmente en esta industria. 

Hasta donde yo sé, estas señoras no solo son dueñas de sus propias casas, sino que además ganan el doble que yo. Cualquier oportunidad que tengo de avanzar en mi carrera me la bloquean. Entonces, de qué exactamente se están quejando?

Ya no es un enojo con fundamentos. Es algo mas profundo, que viene de la inseguridad de ellas. 

Es una pena! un año mas, y les dire bye bye! o mejor dicho: Hasta Nunca! 

Sueños

​I fell asleep studying insurance. Reading about: Talent Acquisition. 

I dreamt that the rules and structures for HR in general, were designed by women. And that men, had to learn how to navigate through them. 

I remember thinking: “that’s why all of them behave exactly the same. Every agency I worked for, they do and say the same things”. 

My dream was so bizarre. The HR rules were like an ocean filled with junk. The men were getting inside this ocean naked. Some of them had snorkeling devices. Men were getting injured all the time. 

 I remember one fat naked guy, got his penis bitten by something. People laughed as if it was funny. 

Another guy, brought his girlfriend, but couldn’t get any deeper into the ocean of junk, in part because he was afraid of putting her in danger. 


Monday, February 9, 2026

S.M.A.R.T. ART Goals

Applying what I am learning about Insurance Agency Management - to my own: 


SMART -ART GOALS: 

 Specific 

Measurable 

Achievable 

Relevant 

Timed 


Goal: 

To complete  3 series of artwork: 

-Oil painting series, based on urban landscape inspiration (10 paintings)

-Acrylic abstract paintings, based on the cosmos and the subconscious (5 paintings) 

-Collage series, based on dreams, absurdity and surreal landscapes, which I will convert to AI animations. 

(10 collages)

Date Line, July 2026