Sueños

 I am in El Salv, at home, outdoors. I just finished meditating and I am laying down on the yoga mat. Is night time, and I am about to fall asleep. Suddenly my father comes in, looking for the flashlight.  

I tell him Maria took it, but she is asleep. I pointed out to her bed that is right across from me. I see my dad go to M’s bed and started searching for the flashlight underneath the blankets. I think this is quite inappropriate. I get up and do the search myself. I find it and hand the flashlight to my dad. 

He walks away and I follow behind. I see him pointing the flashlight into the darkness to see if it works. He illuminates a field with wild flowers. 

I go back to the yoga mat, and now I have the flashlight in my hands. I see the wall of a room behind me, the wall is old, falling down. There is a small opening. I point the flashlight there. I heard the voice of an older man crying, or moaning. 

I don’t dare to look.  Sounds like the ghost of someone. 

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In another dream: Someone invited me to another bookclub. (Kevin?) The gathering is in a public space, like a huge shopping mall.  The story is about an older man and his adventures traveling around the world in a small boat. I am sitting, waiting. When suddenly I spotted my Kaiser primary doctor at another table talking to another woman doctor who is Indian. I am debating whether I should say hello. I think is silly! she is just my doctor not my acquaintance. 

A couple of young kids are kissing in front of me. I look at them with tenderness. I see the girl, a young good looking latina, smiling her eyes shining with love. 

I get a call from Kevin, telling me he can’t come to my BC meeting but that I should go to his. He gives me lots of excuses as to why he can’t go to mine. I know he is lying don’t know how, but I know. I say nothing and let him talk. My mind goes to the story I just read…