Today, I won’t let any clouds darken my day. I have so many plans for this weekend, and I’m already behind schedule with my painting. That’s okay, I’ll pick up the pace.
Went to bed without meditating, I was super tired. This morning woke up an hour before alarm. Didn't remember any dreams, so I laid on bed thinking:
-I did not learn of D. R.’s death through a phone call, Facebook, or an email. I learned it from the dead himself! I feel honored, very honored. A real connection, one invisible to the ordinary people. One that will get not 'likes', and comments below, and no one will get to 'repost'. A real connection!
The same happened with PJ, he came to me to say goodbye, before Kate even knew he was dead.
That's an honor. A real honor!
Don Richard, gave me a gift, before he left. A message, that came in the form of a poem, and has inspired a new painting. Has inspired me to look at my dreams for inspiration.
-I do not need anyone, specially man, 'boys'. They need ME apparently! They need me to validate their existence, their brains, their art. I don't.
I am perfectly fine being on my own. Alone in my studio, alone with my computer, alone in bed with a book. Alone in the world of dreams meeting ghosts.
Perfectly fine!
I don't need any of them to save me, to love me, to validate me. How many times they tried to convince me of it. "You can't do it without me" ----YES I CAN! I DID AND I CAN!
Man are so freaking needy! they act as if I depend on them to survive, to be an artist, to be happy etc. When is actually them who are depending on me, to feel superior, and validated.
I rebelled against all of them! I cut the rope they put around my neck, removed the shackles from my wrists, and left the jail where they kept me, spread my wings and flew away.
I've been flying ever since...and have gone to imaginable places. On my own!! And I am still here!
Perfectly fine!
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